06 January, 2009

"Nothing always found a way in..."

Today I got a surprise observation for the last 10 minutes of the last class of the day, and then an hour long lecture about it, ending with being told that some students hate me (with a smile, so I had no idea! what to say in response).  I am not a fan of people saying "as long as you don't talk over your students, just wait for them to be quiet..." as if it will solve the problems of what to do when a career Blood doesn't feel like learning Spanish because it might ruin his high or the girl whose family member just died starts crying in the middle of class, but you don't know that happened because no one tells you. 
Three of my Teaching Fellow friends have quit recently, which is not what I'm planning on, but it's only been 2 days since break ended and I'm really starting to miss the appreciation people showed me during the break. 

1 comment:

Angela said...

I'm really, really sorry that happened to you. I know that it's a *devastating* feeling to be criticized for an unfair "observation" and to be blamed for your students' attitudes, especially when they result from factors beyond your control. I'm sure you are doing your best to deal with these factors, and you got blindsided. I can't offer many words of encouragement, but I can assure you that almost all of us have been there and your confidence will recover. Hang in there. :-(